Home

Everyone said home sweet home, but I feel bitter, so where is the sugar gone away?
Family time they said, but I just feel like I'm in the someone's house. Everyone's like take their own business. Should I blame the parents who failed to build family chemistry and harmony?
Family holiday? Family hangout? Family time? Only at Idul Fitri and family gathering where we gather peacefully. I envy every childrem who can love their parents. I can't feel it. I think I just feel respect to them, as a child to parents. So where does the fault hide?
Rest is available when the rest of them is sleeping. My own time. My mood and feeling extremely unstable in my own room. Should I run and make my own new life?
June 2012, I lost my most beautiful "home" ever. I can do nothing, I have sacrificed anything but she's still a person who have feeling and right to deny. So where's my home?
Where I can find my place to lay down when I'm happy or sad
Where I can find my rest and someone who wipes my tears
Home? I wish in my future I can build my own home, better than now.
Ya, Allah, save me and my family. This isn't what supposed to be.

Resolution

New year is about resolution. But I think I have any thought of that. Well lemme think....
2013:
-Getting fatter, at least reach 65 kg
-Have overall medical check up
-New futsal shoes *done*
-Have a new notebook
-Have GPA more than 3.4
-Take care of her
-Help HB4 make at least 3 songs
-Have at least one of 12/13 jersey kit of Manchester United, Roma, and Real Madrid *Manchester United Away SS, Roma Home SS, Real Madrid Home LS #2 Varane. done*
-Design and manage away kit of Amblest FC
-Go to Dufan *done*
-Apply to be an announcer in somewhere radio station
-Improve my ball shooting skills
-Reborn my The Bleeding Strawhat into the same fire as years ago
-Make The Bleeding Strawhat t-shirt *done* -Get performance stage in Crevolution
-Get her home *failed. don't ask for more*
-Go to Korea
-Have 5 freelance jobs and gain total at least Rp 5.000k *#1 Nike Warehouse Sale Rp 1.375k*
-Have photobox shoots and Watch Despicable Me 2 with her
Bismillah